Friday, July 21, 2017

RIP Chester Bennington (1976-2017)


Found out this morning, while waking up a little too early and was browsing my phone, that Chester Bennington has passed away.

My heart is broken. So, so broken. I can't even express how much grief I feel. I'm too numb to cry, but since hearing the news I feel like I am just drifting through the motions. I don't want to be here at work. I want to curl up in bed, and listen to Linkin Park for however long it takes to feel okay again. Only I don't think it's possible to feel okay again after this. His death feels so real to me, even though I've never met him in person; I'm sure most of us haven't either, but millions of us have healed, or sought comfort from his voice and his words.

Thank you so much for being such a huge part of my childhood, for the lowest times, the best times. You're one of the first bands I grew to love at the age of 9, when I heard Breaking The Habit on radio for the first time. Meteora still remains as one of my most beloved albums of all time. Thank you for being with me these 15 years, and helping me to ride this life out even when I didn't want to. You taught me how to fight through it. I'm sorry you couldn't believe it enough yourself.

I can't ever imagine a Linkin Park without you, Chester. Thank you, I'm sorry you had to go, I'm so heartbroken but it's gonna be okay. It will be okay, just like you said it would be.